Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Music, A few beers and BLECH!!

I have no idea where my inspiration has gone. I am at a complete loss of words. How many times can One repeat themselves before they just come to the realization that no one is really listening. I can write all day long but the fact is that no one cares. And that is fine, I suppose. -- All this bullshit is winding down, I have entered a tunnel, once I could see the light at the end--but now I realize I entered a cave. It was only a spark...a spark of insanity, no doubt. Amazing how insanity can seem to illuminate even the darkest corners, at times. But at the end of the day...it is still just insanity and there is nothing to glorify there. Even now... as I type at a hurried pace, to keep my fingers busy--I have nothing to say. I could comment on a million different things, I could hurl my thoughts and feelings about the current situation and it will only bounce off rubber walls and no one would quite understand my state of mind. I could tell you all my sob stories, I am sure I could drag up those beautiful descriptions to explain the depth of my sorrows, fears, worries, and other such words but the fact is that there is no graciousness and no "walking away with dignity" in those words...and even then, I am sure it would still not be understood quite how I would have meant it to be conveyed. There is nothing inspiring about reading through a womans' tale of despair; and I am quite sure no one wants to watch me dig a deeper hole.

Strive to Live Spherically!

Wait!

I do have positive News--- I am enrolled in school. Thats right, I am almost 30 and I am going back to school. Wish me luck!